Fat or thin?

Many years ago, you'd get a good reputation if you were fat, because that showed that you were rich. Now we are all trying to be thin and slim. Some starve them self's, and some don't. But the thing is. If you have a little fat on your stomach, legs or arms you can't fit the pretty dresses because their only made for super slim girls with no love-handles or anything. 

So why is it, that nowadays we all want to be slim, because we think that if we aren't, we won't get boys/girls to like us.

This community we live in, is so self destructive, some girls/boys turn anorexia or bulimia and some cut or hurt themselves in other ways, because they don't feel that they are good enough for the cloths or their friends/family. 

I've been cutting myself too, so I know why and how it felt. 

I did it because I didn't feel that I was good enough in school, with friends and my family, and I didn't feel that I was pretty or slim enough for anyone to like me. I kept cutting for a long time, and got so good friends with the racer blade that I couldn't get enough of it. It became a thing in my weekdays, and I felt better afterwords. 

I knew, and I know that it was a very bad idea. Sometimes though I feel the need to cut my wrist(also even when I'm not feeling down). 

I want the community and the clothing lines, make-up lines, and photographers to take a little responsibility of what they are designing and posting. 

Right now the only thing they are posting is fear. The make us believe that when you're thin you're happy and you will for sure get someone to love you. The tell us to buy the weight loss pill, where they help us lose 1kg extra when we have been running and lost 2kg by ourselves. But why is it, that they want us to look at fat or chouby people as... I don't know as what exactly but they sure have a reason whey they only choose exstreemly thin gals to walk the runway, or to get on the cover of fashion magazines. Why don't we see some girls who are happy with who they are, with some natural curves perhaps? 

Maybe you're thinking why I'm writing this. It's because I have a little too much weight myself, and I get pretty angry at myself when I see the covers with exstreemly thin young girls. That is pretty much there I think of the racer blade. But I will not let my few kg destroy me. But the magazines sure don't help young girls from cutting or any other self harm.

I am sorry if this comes out a little mean. But that is just how I feel. And there are proberbly some other people out there, who knows how I feel, and feels the same way. There are also people who might think I'm weird, but that is your decision to make. 

Peace and Love to all.

  xx

Guys driving out side my window

I've been noticing that some guys has been riding on their scooter out side on the road I live on. I don't know them, but I really want to go and be with them. Is that weird? Is it only because I'm single, and I've got nothing exiting going on right now in my life?

Copenhell and Marilyn Manson

In Denmark there's a pretty new festival. It's only been there since 2010. The festival's name's Copenhell, which probably gives you an idea of what kind of music there will be played. Metal. 

If you've read some of my other posts you'll know that I love Marilyn Manson. He is coming to Denmark in 2012, and I really want to see him. I haven't ordered my ticket yet because I don't have anyone to go with, and the tickets are quit expensive. I'm the only one of my friends, who could possibly be going because they live close to me, who likes metal music. So I can't go with any of my friends, it has to be a parent, a cousin or a sibling. 

As things are now. I'm screwed.

I would so do him!

www.copenhell.dk

Cutting your ....

So, you might think that I was going to talk/write/whatever about cutting your wrist. But no! I'm going to write about cutting your hair. 

I, myself, really wants to cut my hair. A part of my tells me just to do it, cause it grows out again anyways, and its just hair! But the other part of be is so scared of doing it, just because, its going to take a long time to grow out again, and what if I'm going to miss it? 

I'm really close to doing it. I've found a really great hair dresser, and now the only thing left to do is, to get my wallet and go and get it done.

I've been thinking about doing it in over a year now. I'm such a pussy !! 

But still... my hair is like, medium long, and I want to get it boy short... so maybe it's natural?

OMG WHO CARES!! I JUST GOING TO CUT IT!!!

...waist of time...

love to all of you!xx 

Björk

Through the warmthest
Cord of care
Your love was sent to me


I'm not sure
What to do with it
Or where to put it


I'm so close to tears
And so close to
Simply calling you up
I'm simply suggesting


We go to the hidden place
That we go to the hidden place
We go to the hidden place
We go to a hidden place


Now I have
Been slightly shy
And I can smell a pinch of hope
To almost have allowed once fingers
To stroke
The fingers I was given to touch with
But careful, careful
There lies my passion, hidden
There lies my love
I'll hide it under a blanket
Lull it to sleep


I'll keep it in a hidden place
I'll keep it in a hidden place
Keep it in a hidden place
Keep it in a hidden place


He's the beautifullest
Fragilest
Still strong
Dark and divine
And the littleness of his movements
Hides himself
He invents a charm that makes him invisible
Hides in the air
Can I hide there too?
Hide in the air of him
Seek solace
Sanctuary


In the hidden place
In a hidden place
In a hidden place
We'll stay in a hidden place
Ooohh in a hidden place
We'll live in a hidden place
We'll be in a hidden place
In a hidden place

weird dream

Yesterday when I was sleeping, I had a dream it was really weird.. And I woke up all sweaty..

The dream go's like this :

I was married with a guy, and we had I child together. The kid was only like 4-6 years old. But we had my father-in-law on visit. And he was staying with us, for a couple of days. Then one day, after I had taken a shower, I was only wearing my towel, my father-in-law, started looking at me.. kind of sexually. I didn't like that. I spoke to my husband about it, and he confronted his father. Then the his dad got a little weird, and started to follow us everywhere, and do weird things.
Another day, when I was just sitting in a room, my father-in-law, came into the room, and started talking and being weird and scary. I didn't want to be in the same room as him. I could hear that my husband was taking a shower, so I ran out to the bathroom, and knocked on the door and begged him to open it. He did. I got inside the bathroom. My husband wasn't showering, just standing with all his cloths on, and holding our son, while the water ran in the shower.
My father-in-law, was running after me, and he noticed that I had run into the bathroom. We quickly locked the door, but the father-in-law had done something with the lock, so we couldn't lock it. He was coming closer and closer, so i screamed to my husband that we had to push the door, so he wouldn't be able to open it. We did, and when his father came, he couldn't get in. We heard him walk into the room next to the bathroom. My husband was screaming to him "NO DAD! THIS IS MY BATHROOM! DAD THAT'S NOT THE WAY TO BREATH!!"
Then. Suddenly, the bathroom wall exploded, and me, my husband and our child died.

Then I woke up. Totally freaked out and sweaty!

Christmas

It's nearly Christmas, and I've been out buying presents all day long yesterday. The streets are decorated, and the shops are covered with pictures of snow, and winter cloths. I'm just not in the mood. I thought I would be all Christmasy this year, but I just don't really care about it. :(  

It's not snowing where I live yet, and maybe that is also why I'm not all "GO CHRISTMAS" this year? 

Snow is so beautiful, and I miss it a lot right now.. The snows beautifully way to make all the grey days wonderful and not that grey.

Smoke

I've tried to smoke a couple of times. I didn't hate it, but I didn't like it either. 

I hate smoking because of the taste, and if you keep smoking a lot, in the end you'll probably die of it.

I've got one thing I like about it, and that is the smoke. That think air, is so beautiful. The way it waves up in the air. It looks so magical...

Ice Cream

So… Ice cream…!

It tastes great. Which is wired.. cause it.. frozen milk? with… different kinds of flavors? I mean… it sounds so gross.. like, “hey babe, want some frozen milk with added sugar and a different taste?” and your like “YAY!!” but… eww?

No defence, I LOVE ice cream.. but thinking about it… really think about it… makes me go : xP (dead)

and its something squeezed out of a cow... >P

Today's outfit

Well.. I just wanted to post today's outfit.
Hope you like it ;]

Tattoo's

I've been watching some L.A Ink... I really want a tattoo someday, so to get inspiration I like to see what and why other people gets their tattoos made. Its so amazing how beautiful tattoo artists can make tattoos.
Actually I once wanted to be a tattoo artist, but I just don't think I would want to maybe make a mistake on someone, and wouldn't be able to erase it again. That would be horrible. I would be so mad at myself if I made a mistake like this:

... But still.. it would be pretty cool to be a tattoo'er :)

Random Post

SO! I was just thinking.. that I'm gonna take a shower. But its always like, arghh naahh.. I'm gonna skip that, and I'll just do it tomorrow.. But when your in the shower, and the hot water is poring down on your naked body. I'm like, Nah! I ain't leaving this shower!!!
I love showers :)

THAT SHOWER THINGY IS AMAZING!! ME WANTIE! thers like a sauna(or what ever its called) and there's a chair, so if you get tired of standing, you can sit :) this is just amaaaazing!!
This shower will soon be mine!!

Nightmare

So today, I watched Nightmare Before Christmas.. It was not at all how I thought it was. I did like it though. It was so "cute". I love the way the characters are made.. kinda clay'ish ?
 I thought the movie was more about Christmas, so I really looked forward to get into that Christmasy mood.. but naah, didn't happen. Don't really think I'll get into that Christmas mood this year. It sucks, cause when I see all the people that are all "Yay! Go Christmas! Don't you just LOVE Christmas?" - then I'm all like.. well yeah, I do.. but I just can't find the mood this year.

 Anyways! What I'm trying to say is! You should all watch Nightmare Before Christmas and Corpse Bride!!

Marilyn Manson

I know that a lot of you might not like Marilyn Manson because of his music, makeup ect. But some of you might like/love everything about him. I'm one of the lovers :)

Why do I like him?

-Because his lyrics make sense, they have a meaning and isn't just some cliche love songs. I get where his coming from, and I love the way he is so calm when he talks/get interviewed. He know exactly what to say, and what not to say.

 His an gorges intelligent man, and i wish that everybody, even the ones that doesn't like his music, would take a couple of minutes just to listen to one or two of his interviews, and notice how amazing he is.