Fat or thin?

Many years ago, you'd get a good reputation if you were fat, because that showed that you were rich. Now we are all trying to be thin and slim. Some starve them self's, and some don't. But the thing is. If you have a little fat on your stomach, legs or arms you can't fit the pretty dresses because their only made for super slim girls with no love-handles or anything. 

So why is it, that nowadays we all want to be slim, because we think that if we aren't, we won't get boys/girls to like us.

This community we live in, is so self destructive, some girls/boys turn anorexia or bulimia and some cut or hurt themselves in other ways, because they don't feel that they are good enough for the cloths or their friends/family. 

I've been cutting myself too, so I know why and how it felt. 

I did it because I didn't feel that I was good enough in school, with friends and my family, and I didn't feel that I was pretty or slim enough for anyone to like me. I kept cutting for a long time, and got so good friends with the racer blade that I couldn't get enough of it. It became a thing in my weekdays, and I felt better afterwords. 

I knew, and I know that it was a very bad idea. Sometimes though I feel the need to cut my wrist(also even when I'm not feeling down). 

I want the community and the clothing lines, make-up lines, and photographers to take a little responsibility of what they are designing and posting. 

Right now the only thing they are posting is fear. The make us believe that when you're thin you're happy and you will for sure get someone to love you. The tell us to buy the weight loss pill, where they help us lose 1kg extra when we have been running and lost 2kg by ourselves. But why is it, that they want us to look at fat or chouby people as... I don't know as what exactly but they sure have a reason whey they only choose exstreemly thin gals to walk the runway, or to get on the cover of fashion magazines. Why don't we see some girls who are happy with who they are, with some natural curves perhaps? 

Maybe you're thinking why I'm writing this. It's because I have a little too much weight myself, and I get pretty angry at myself when I see the covers with exstreemly thin young girls. That is pretty much there I think of the racer blade. But I will not let my few kg destroy me. But the magazines sure don't help young girls from cutting or any other self harm.

I am sorry if this comes out a little mean. But that is just how I feel. And there are proberbly some other people out there, who knows how I feel, and feels the same way. There are also people who might think I'm weird, but that is your decision to make. 

Peace and Love to all.

  xx