Friday, October 26, 2012

Saturday: 27th October 2012

Right now, I feel like my life is a living hell. I don't know why I keep feeling sad. Keep being unhappy. Anyway... today. And yesterday. I couldn't vomit. My body refused to do it. It annoys me so much, and I guess that's part of the reason I am unhappy. I want to be thin. I want to be it now. I had lost some weight, but because my body refuses to help me, I'm putting it on again. I feel myself getting bigger, grosser, fatter and uglier... if that is even possible. Fuck. I just hate my body. So fucking unbelievably unattractive, gross, fat, ugly and just huge. I take up too much space. The world needs the space I take up. Why am I even living? at the moment I see no reason. The world would be better on without me. The people I know will be better without me. They wont have to be stuck with this annoying fat-ass bitch-whore I am. They would be happier.

With all that said. I need to smoke. I need a cigarette. Now. Please?
 -Fuck my life.

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