I don't know any more

I want so shoot J a little...
Just so you are sure, J is another *name* for a person.

So like... It is not that damn hard to just talk to me. After what happened, you should be able to. We are both confused, but I don't want to always be the one who has to take the first uncomfortable step. It's not my turn now. You do it! Please? I really want you to. I want to figure things out. And I think you want to too.
I hope you've grown some balls till tomorrow, otherwise I don't know what I'll do. Fuck this. You're probably better off with out me. Most people are. At lest I think they are.. or not.. I don't know anymore. I'm hungry, but I don't have any food that is eatable...

I am sorry to bore you reading this. I just have to get my feelings out someway that isn't self-destructive.

Love you all blog-suckers.