Cloths

So why is cloths so importan? We judge from what we see... We first fall in love with the appearance andthen the personality. It is a cruel world! I havethough tried falling in love with a person who I actually didn't find attractive at all to begin with. It all changed ihenI got to know him better. The problem was though that he was too old, and even though our family isn't one where my parents have to approve the guy I would be dating, but they sure would not like me to be with a guy that age. 

But back to the cloths. I have been think about it a lot. 

Many people express themselfs trough their clothing. When I was an emo-kid i expressed it thorugh cloths and makeup. I looked so sad, mad, unhappy and depressed all the time. I were. Sometimes I made a mohawk if I had a punkish day, sometimes I flattend it. Oh my fucking christ do you know how hard it is to be emo with curly hair? It is doomed for disaster! Anyway, now, I don't consider myself as emo. I see myself more like... Well, just me. I where the cloths I feel like. I try to put on something with color. Of course I have those days where I wear nothing but black, but not in that emo kind of way. More ind the, not to be rude, stilish way. I've been emo, so I think I have the right to say that it wasn't the most stylish period of my life. 

Anywho. There was this one day where I was sitting in the train on my way to my friends house. I had my thight fitted dark grey jacket on, stay-ups with holes in them and my black plateau pair of shoes. As I was sitting there listening to Marilyn Manson in my headphones, I realized that I was being judged... Extremely! There was a lot of people getting on the train that day, but no one dared to sit next to me. They all looked shocked at me, my mohawk, dark makeup and lipstick. They were afraid of me. It made me realize that... I didn't wan't people to notice me and think negativly about me, but yes, do want people to notice me... But in a positive way. I told my friend what I had thought about, and she agreed. It's better to be noticed by a cute guy where he might think, she looks pretty nice, then by a cute guy where he might think, shit what happend to her? 

So I took a long look at myself. Looked at pictures of me and noticed how much that was just not me. It is some days, but not everyday all day. I started to clean out my closet. Threw out and gave away cloths. I bought so much new and got better at noticing what I wear. A little too much maybe. I change cloths some many times in one day it makes me sick. If I don't feel comfortable in the cloths I wear... I jet anxious and confused... Then I change till I find something that fits me that one day... Or hour. 

The thing is... I don't even know if ere is anyone reading my posts, but if there are; Thank you. Truely thank you. It means the world to me. 

Any-anyway, my outfit to day is a long black and white maxi dress from Monki. It's my favorite dress because you can wear it at a party or something casual(or when you are just home alone like me). See it for yourself.

It would probably look even better on someone skinnier than me;) 

I love to have a simple eye makeup on with this dress, and then some dark redish lipstick. 

My concealer is from Lancôme Paris. After I applyed that I put on my mascara from MaxFactor - 2000 Calorie Dramatic Volume, after that my other mascara from L'Oréal Paris - Mega Volume Collagene. 

My lip stick... Actually its more of a lipgloss is from Estée Lauder - Lip Vinyl Gloss Stick Palette.

Heres a picture of my makeup... (Thanks for reading all of my thoughts)